so. it's been a while, but i have my reasons.

as of october sixteenth of last year, i am no longer a monkey serving a lost in the woods dot com. now, i am one of the fourty thousand minions in the silicon valley searching for that one job. not the "right" job, or even a "fun" job, but any job that isn't food service. but even those aren't hiring.

it's been over four months now, and there has been almost no hope. i did get one hopeful interview, a month ago. at NASA of all places, but i never heard back from them because i wasn't a rocket scientist i couldn't, in any way, be qualified to be their webmaster. but then again, they haven't called me back yet. so... NASA, if you're reading this... i would thouroughly enjoy working for you.

being unemployed is a bit strange. not strange in a wierd way, but strange since i've been working full or part time since i was fifteen. through high school, college, and after, i've been working. i switched jobs when needed, but kept on working. i haven't had this much free time...ever.

but, free time, seemingly to someone who's working as the best thing in the world, is, to the unemployed... a nightmare. i'm so bored and unmotovated i've been considering running around in traffic, blindfolded, just for some excitement.

then, there's the money issue. unemployemnt benefits, though they are benefits that i'd be lost without, are a joke and a hassle. no more getting a paycheck every other friday. no. there's forms to fill out, unemployment interviews to partake in, lots of waiting for the government, who are attempting to redefine stupidity.

quote from my unemployment councelor: "so, why did you send your form in late?" me: "because i didn't get the correct form to send in until last week." them: "well, if you don't send the forms on time, we can't process them correctly." me: "you don't process them correctly anyways. this was the third form that you sent with the incorrect dates. unless you send me the correct forms, there isn't anything i can do." them: sorry about that. we'll send you the correct forms in seven to ten days, and if you send in the new form right away, you should get the check in about twenty days." me: "well now, that doesn't help me pay rent tomorrow, now does it?" *click*

i've got every creditor after me. now, they call me once, and send me letters with "This is our final demand." i'm redefining broke on a daily basis. my car is off the road because i can't afford insurance. everything's shut off. the cable, the phone, the old server...

oh yeah. the old server. i had to move to a cheaper server because the old one was too expensive, but, since i can't pay the two months overdue, i can't get the content off of it. so, i'm shit out of luck.

those six lanes of traffic with construction are looking really tempting...